i am not sure i even know the answer to that question. there is a part of me that wants to close this down right now and not type any more. a part of me that is scared of getting back to writing. scared of not being able to express myself. scared that i will not keep it up and it will end up sitting here in cyber-space like my xanga and other blogs i started in the past. mostly i am scared of opening up again...of saying what's in my heart. i have gotten used to bottling it up and keeping it all in. perhaps sometimes this is an effective way of protecting one's heart and emotions, but these days i am learning that it is not an effective way to live a life dedicated to making Him known and reaching out to bless others.
so maybe this blog marks the beginning of my journey back into the world of those who are living and loving life. maybe it is the door to my heart cracking open just a bit to let the light of honesty and truth stream in and warm the coldness that is only just beginning to thaw...
whatever it is, here it is
it may not always be encouraging or uplifting. it may not always sound like one chosen to be a disciple, or called to be a saint should sound. it may not be beautiful words of inspiration or deep and intellectual wisdom.
but it's real. and it's me.
I read it. Keep writing... I'll walk back with you.
ReplyDeleteBek, we're learning, growing, and trusting Him together, wherever He has us - looking forward to keeping up with you and praying for you as I read what He's doing in your life and heart. Always your friend, <3, Tre
ReplyDeleteoh bekah, how i wish for a long "heart to heart" with you! i miss you, dear friend! bless your heart for stepping out and opening your heart. will you be in taiwan the middle of august? i'm seriously considering coming for a visit.
ReplyDeleteBekah姊姊 ~ How wonderful your writing is! Especially, I like this,''but it's real,and it's me.'' Love, Jasmine
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